17 March 2010


Happy submarine day. Weird.

Also, I'm moving to Ohio in 75 days.
And I'm going to Ethiopa in 14.

20 February 2010

12 February 2010

There's a difference between optimism and naïveté..

I've started to journal on my own so I've kinda stopped blogging.
Everything from the past 4 months or so is over and done with and I am oh so happy.

Not the happy where I'm filling myself with meaningless fleeting things that only satisfy me for so long.

The kind of happy where I'm starting to do things right and get everything together and realize Jesus loves me despite all my crap.

Hopefully I won't be in Ca for much longer

01 February 2010

Always blame yourself.

Things are going fairly swell at the moment..to all 3 of you out there..

28 January 2010

Human Hands

I feel stupid.
People are just stupid and ignorant and we can't help it.. Always have been and always will be.

20 January 2010

Problems to answer or Answers to problems?

So I'd been having multiple dreams each night for the past couple months and they have all been really srange. So I decided to look up what they meant. Just for curiosity not really anything serious. And they all had around the same meaning.. See:

To dream that you are waking up in your dream, indicates that something is missing or lacking in your life. There is an aspect of your life that you are not utilizing to its fullest potential or are not recognizing your abilities. The dream is literally telling you to open your eyes and wake up!

To dream that you have long hair, indicates that you are thinking long and carefully before making some decision. You are concentrating on some plan or situation.

To dream that you feel dizzy, symbolizes confusion. You are unable to make a decision or make up your mind about something. Concentrate on a focal point and learn to balance your choices.

To dream that you are blind, represents your refusal to see the truth or your lack of awareness to a problem. Perhaps you are rejecting something about yourself or your situation. Are you refusing to see any other point of view except your own? Consider the pun, "turning a blind eye".

To dream that your house is broken into, suggests that you are feeling violated. It may refer to a particular relationship or current situation in your life. Alternatively, it indicates that some unconscious material is attempting to make itself known. There are some aspects of yourself that you have denied.

To dream that you are breathing underwater, represents a retreat back into the womb. You want to return to a state where you were dependent and free from responsibilities. Perhaps you are feeling helpless, unable to fulfill your own needs and caring for yourself. Alternatively, you may be submerged in your emotions.

Those were the dreams I'd had for months repetitively until last night:

To dream that you are flying, signifies a sense of freedom where you had initially felt restricted and limited.

To hear someone sing in your dream, signifies emotional and spiritual fulfillment. You are changing your mood and experiencing a more positive outlook in life.

Things are looking up..

04 January 2010