Welp..

Happy submarine day. Weird.

Also, I'm moving to Ohio in 75 days.
And I'm going to Ethiopa in 14.

Same song; Different verse

I never learn do I?

There's a difference between optimism and naïveté..

I've started to journal on my own so I've kinda stopped blogging.
Everything from the past 4 months or so is over and done with and I am oh so happy.

Not the happy where I'm filling myself with meaningless fleeting things that only satisfy me for so long.

The kind of happy where I'm starting to do things right and get everything together and realize Jesus loves me despite all my crap.

Hopefully I won't be in Ca for much longer

Always blame yourself.

Things are going fairly swell at the moment..to all 3 of you out there..

Human Hands

I feel stupid.
People are just stupid and ignorant and we can't help it.. Always have been and always will be.

Problems to answer or Answers to problems?

So I'd been having multiple dreams each night for the past couple months and they have all been really srange. So I decided to look up what they meant. Just for curiosity not really anything serious. And they all had around the same meaning.. See:

To dream that you are waking up in your dream, indicates that something is missing or lacking in your life. There is an aspect of your life that you are not utilizing to its fullest potential or are not recognizing your abilities. The dream is literally telling you to open your eyes and wake up!

To dream that you have long hair, indicates that you are thinking long and carefully before making some decision. You are concentrating on some plan or situation.

To dream that you feel dizzy, symbolizes confusion. You are unable to make a decision or make up your mind about something. Concentrate on a focal point and learn to balance your choices.

To dream that you are blind, represents your refusal to see the truth or your lack of awareness to a problem. Perhaps you are rejecting something about yourself or your situation. Are you refusing to see any other point of view except your own? Consider the pun, "turning a blind eye".

To dream that your house is broken into, suggests that you are feeling violated. It may refer to a particular relationship or current situation in your life. Alternatively, it indicates that some unconscious material is attempting to make itself known. There are some aspects of yourself that you have denied.

To dream that you are breathing underwater, represents a retreat back into the womb. You want to return to a state where you were dependent and free from responsibilities. Perhaps you are feeling helpless, unable to fulfill your own needs and caring for yourself. Alternatively, you may be submerged in your emotions.

Those were the dreams I'd had for months repetitively until last night:

To dream that you are flying, signifies a sense of freedom where you had initially felt restricted and limited.

To hear someone sing in your dream, signifies emotional and spiritual fulfillment. You are changing your mood and experiencing a more positive outlook in life.

Things are looking up..

that's just the way it goes

things are lookin up.

Things accomplished in '09.

Instead of making a list of things that I'll try to accomplish in'10, I'll make a list of things I already accomplished in '09. Sound fair?

• ..I gave my cat a bath..


• ....uhh..


• uhm..

Ohkk.. I just sat there for 20 minutes. No exaggeration. Lets go with what I didn't accomplish:

• I didn't get in shape


• I didn't make new friends. In fact I have less friends


• I didn't say "no"

Let's hope 2010 is a way less crappy year than '09. I'm going into my sophomore year so I'll still be somewhat of a scrub.

I have no resolutions. So that is that.

Off to go buy some noisemakers. Happy New Year

Baby, it's cold outside..

Christmas is almost here. I'm finally settling down into the actual relaxation of my break from school because all the hustle & bustle of shopping for other people & not myself is finally over. Sort of.

Along with the typical Christmas things comes a few other things:

The day after Christmas, one of the worst days of the year because you know that you have a whole year until next Christmas.

New Years.. Which basically means I'll make a lame resolution & forget about it after a week. It also shows me my lack of friends as I sit at home & watch Twilight Zone for 2 days straight.

You know that feeling on the first day of school after Christmas vacation? Where everyone basically looks insanely hungover with that "WhyamIhereIwanttoleave&nevecomebackIhatemylife..." look on their faces. That day makes me want to drop out of school & become a urine collector for drug tests

All that aside, I love Christmas. More than I should. I don't need an ugly Christmas sweater party as an excuse to wear an ugly Christmas sweater. I'll just do it

So with all that said, Merry Christmas & Happy Holidays

I will most definately not be posting a New Years Resolutions List because that is basically just publicly posting failure

Ps: Santa Clause in Spanish is Papa Noel. Cute

Fever I know you've come to take my love

Being sick sucks..

Welp I'm still going to disneyland tomorrow..sooo

Dear cough/fever,

I would just like to let you know that you are not welcome here & if you could leave the premises as soon as possible it would be so greatly appreciated.

Signed,

my body

irony..ish

So the day I write the stupid little analogy about my life, it rains the next day. fate? maybe.

Rainy days make my face happy.

Go hop in a puddle.

Happy national cotton candy day

You can run but you can't hide

I am personally not a fan of metaphors or similes or analogies..but..

Well my life feels kinda like rain right now

Sometimes I can see a crazy storm that could come, but it doesn't

Sometimes a storm hit very unexpectedly

Sometimes it's light sprinkling

Sometimes it could turn into beautiful snow

Sometimes it could turn into hail

Sometime's it's exactly what was expected

If I was someone else reading what I just wrote, I would kind of want to punch me in the face..

Oh well.

Cheer up sleepy Jean..

I started to write stuff. But I wasn't sure what to say.

I find it funny that I'm not really writing to anyone because no one reads this.

I guess it's my way of getting thoughts out of my mind.

Life's neutral. You could say I'm fairly content.

I kind of feel like I'm asleep all the time.

So

I learned a few things lately..
People I'm around most often change me
Boys are complicated&much better at being friends
To gain a friend that is better for you, you might have to lose one too
The dorky kids in the corner are better anyways

Swirlys&Twirlys

Sooo a couple years ago I used to ice skate. If I do say so myself I wasn't that bad. For some reason I just stopped because I'm irresponsible & such. I have decided to take it up again.

I'm clumsy on land but a graceful gazelle on ice.Not really.

We Are Not What You Think We Are

We Are Golden

I hate being so young..

Pros:

• Nothing to worry about really
  
• No responsibility

Cons:

• No car


• I can't leave & go somewhere whenever I want


• Most of my friends are juniors & seniors

I cannot wait until the day I can get a license & a car & be able to go wherever I want whenever I want.

Everyone tells me that high school will be the best years of my life. I beg to differ

Some Clever Title that I Can't Think of Right Now

When your prized posessions start to weigh you down look in my direction. I'll be round. I'll be round

I just got back from my second missions trip to Mexico. It was great.





This litle girl was so sweet. She had a really hard life from what I could understand her telling me. All she wanted to do was sit on my lap & hear the colors & animals in english

Literally the best soda I will ever drink.

These kids were hilarious. Oh & apparently 3 of them were my boyfriends!

I loved this little girl! She freaked out when I would blow bubbles & get all bummed when she couldn't catch them because they would pop(:

Anyways. I'm to tired to mess with the html crap. I'll post the full pictures on my facebook later. I'm tired. A shower has never ever felt so good. And escuchen means to listen, not to scoot closer.

Sigh..

Sometimes you make mistakes.
Sometimes it sucks.

Sometimes you don't think before you do things.
Sometimes you're really stupid.

Sometimes you gain a lot of trust from someone.
Sometimes you can lose it in a matter of 2 seconds.

Sometimes you're a big jerk.
Sometimes you hurt people.

Sometimes I really need forgiveness..
"Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may recieve mercy & find grace to help us in our time of need"-Hebrews 4:16

Weell..

High school's been pretty ok.
Not great.
Yet not terrible.

Made friends with people I never thought I would be.
And renewed old friendships

I sit in the corner of the quad with all my friends(: Our loser table.
That's the best part of my day.

Girl's are still catty brats.
I like boys way better.

I have 2 sincere girl friends now & the rest are boys.
Boys get over things & don't cry at the drop of a hat.

Life's going ok right now.

Happy national frappe day(:

10 Goals to Self-Improvement:]

1. Get into shape. So I don't feel like I'm gonnna die when I run one frikin lap.

2. Stop & think every once in a while..

3. Talk about my problems.

4. Make friends with those I don't like very much.

5. Fight temptation like no otha' motha'!

6. Stop caring what other people think.

7. Realize that sitting in a corner won't get me friends. Not ones I want anyways.

8. Don't think, listen[:

9. Stop being afraid to tell people my opinion.

10. Stand up for what's right.